Gushing

Sometimes as a Mom, I get the feeling that I am just gushing... oozing...spewing love. Like I might burst at any moment and love will splatter all over the wall. I feel this way the most when I am holding my kiddos. My precious little boys. I love them so much it hurts sometimes.

I know I am obnoxious. But it's true. I love them. More than I know how to describe.


Today Cammon was crawling. And I was watching him from across the room. I really should post a video of him crawling on here. It is kind of bizarre. He is so itty-bitty. He has short pudgy little legs.  And tiny little arms that don't look strong enough to hold up any part of him. And yet he moves on his own. So cute. And he stopped crawling for a second and looked up at me with that big Cammon grin-- the "it's my Mom! My favorite person in the world" grin. And my chest got all tight and my eyes got all watery because I just love him SO much.

And Adney.... Oh Adney. Today we were in the Mall in Idaho Falls on a Saturday... bad idea with two kiddos. And he threw the biggest FIT. Stomping... screaming... yelling profanities (which for him means "stupid" and "mean"). He was past reason. The only thing I could do was throw him over my shoulder, kicking and screaming, and make a run for it. We had to run all the way through the mall to get to the door that lead to my car. So the entire mall got to witness his tantrum. They probably thought I was stealing him from a nice mom. Anyways... we got to the door and I went to get my keys out from under the stroller, only to realize that Adney had stolen something from a store. A store that just happened to be on the other side of the mall. So we repeated the whole ordeal over again. I think, if I could do it over again I would just keep it and send them a check in the mail. By the time we got to the car, both kids were screaming. Yikes! As we were driving home Adney said "Mommy- I'm sorry for whining". I burst out laughing. His definition of whining is way different than mine. But I loved the fact that he was apologizing. And I didn't even ask him to.

Then tonight when we were putting Adney in bed he gave me a big hug and said "I love you so much mom." When did he get so grown up? So tall? And again, I got all teary. I love you too bud.

Ok... I'm done gushing.