Feeling grateful.

So I don't really know what I want to say tonight. I guess I am just feeling kind of blessed and happy and wanted a place to say it "Out loud". So thanks for listening..... I mean reading. haha.

I have a good life. I know my life isn't what some people would think of as "ideal". I got married relatively young. And no, it's not because I was preggers. I married because I found a man I could not imagine living without and it didn't matter to me if I was young. I wanted that next step in my life, and I wanted it with him. Then we had a baby a year after we got married. And that one actually wasn't planned. However it was welcomed and if I were to go back I wouldn't want it any other way. And now we have been married for over 5 year and Kyle is still in school. We are living with family. We are living on student loans and money is constantly and issue. But we are happy. We are blessed. We are loved.

In society it seems like the acceptable way to start your adult life is to live it for yourself. Don't get married until you are educated and have a successful career. And then when you do get married, don't have kids until you have been married for long enough to know if it's going to last. And once you have kids don't have too many kids lest you overpopulate the earth. And maybe there is wisdom or truth to some of this. But it's not what I chose to do. (And yes, I do plan on having more kids... not for a few years though). And even though I chose to do things against the society norm... I am happy. Weird right? And Kyle won't be in school forever (although sometimes it feels like it). But somehow I think that when we are all done and settled into a salary and house somewhere, I will miss these days. They are so simple. We don't have much, we don't need much. We are happy and in love and we have the two most adorable little munchkins of our very own. It feels very much like playing house. I can proudly say that I have lived my life so far with no huge regrets. I have made mistakes. But none that were earth shattering. And I look back at my 21 year old self and admire that wise young woman for making some really good decisions that set me in the path I wanted to be on, the path I am currently going down.

Ok, sorry. I am totally bragging about my life. It's annoying and silly. But I have to admit that it is all and more than I hoped it would be. I am just so happy in life. I love my life. I love the people in it. And I love that I love my life. Not that it is perfect by any means. But it is mine. And it is beautiful.